Saturday, May 31, 2008
My Greatest Enemy...
Enlarged lymph nodes...
I get these pretty often when I am gonna fall sick or already sick...especially if theres an infection.
Its horrible to have these lumps around my neck...
Most of the time its acompanied by a very sore throat and usually lasts for about 2 weeks MAX.
However, I have been having this problem.
I have been having enlarged lymph nodes for about 1 and a half months.
For the past one month it was just there...no pain..no infection...but there is pain on and off...but not all the time.
Started coughing really really badly about 5 days ago..and now cough is much better...
But pain in the throat is quite bad.
Have to take mild painkillers everyday...
Did some research and found out that Lymph nodes actually filter bacteria amd cancer cells....If the lymph nodes are enlarged, it means that the lymph nodes are actually losing the battle to keep these bacteria away.
End result will either be infection or cancer....
So thats like a summary....
Mine also seems like tonsillitis.....only that I dun have a fever...
Went to A&E on Monday morning at 3 am because I could not bear the pain...Could not even talk without wincing in pain...and I felt heavier carring those huge lymph nodes around. But guess what the doc did not even take a look at my throat. I told him that the lymph nodes visited me one month ago and refused to leave..I still find it weird that he didn't even check my throat as I told him that my throat was very painful. He just asked me if I had a history of tonsillitis and I said 'No'. He said its not good to have lumps all over...Then kinda hinted to me that I have to go to see the ENT specialist to go for a biopsy to check if the cells in the lymph nodes are cancerous. He kept reassuring me that most of the times its not cancer.....He was too tactful for me...Now I really dunno if its anything to worry or nothing to worry. Before I left he even said, 'Tell ur hubby dun need to worry..dun need to come at 3am next time'. I was like...huh...ya right...u are not the one who is going through the shit so its easy for u to say la....
So that plus the online research that I have been doing has led me to being very very confused. I would love to ignore it..But cun la..When I lie on my side or face down, I can feel them.....and it can get quite painful and otherwise is very very uncomfortable. Imagine having horrible lumps around your neck.So I guess I will be going for the ENT appointment la... But I really dun wanna waste money leh..See how la...
Another problem is that my right eye that Rayn poked about a year back is giving me problems....My sleep on Tuesday night was interupted 4 times. Woke up not being able to open my eyes and tears was just just pouring from my eyes...The worst part of it was the fact that I could feel my right ear block up..It is really horribe...Haha sounds horrible yeah...it is horrible...I feel like a walking dictionary of weird ailments la. I guess this time when I see Fairy Godmother all I will ask her is for good health so that I can see Rayn blossom into an adult. All the health problems I have encountered since young have left me thinking that I will die young. But then again dying early is better than dying with all those sicknesses attacking my body when I am old. But then again...I am not ready to answer for all my actions in the other world...Haiz... One thing is for sure..when I die Amin can remarry. He needs someone to take care of him after all. But I have already told my dad that if Amin remarries, Rayn should not stay with him....I dun want any step mum to take care of MY baby...He is better off in the hands of my blood. Haha far thinking eh. By the way I forgot to mention. My dad actually had a very very bad fall while playing badminton on Thursday night.. He fell on his back and hit his head with a loud thud. Was swollen... We brought him to SGH just to make sure that his skull did not get fractured. Thank God he is fine. Well I think this post is getting way too long.. And my throat is kinda killing me everytime I swallow my saliva. So I better bid you farewell dear blog. Let us hope that I am in a better state in my next entry... Stay tuned! Good night
Posted by Caramel at 7:05 PM
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Shopping she went...
Hey! Finally managed to go shopping on Saturday.
Luckily Amin does not spend money like me.
I really dunno where my money flies to la.
But I suspect most of the dough goes into FOOD! Hehe Gluttony
Sweetie pie took me to Vivo City and let me buy everything I wanted.
He let me use the money that he had saved in the sly.
If he told me about it earlier, I bet he would not have been able to save hehe
Felt like a princess on that day hehe...
Did I tell you I love him to bits...
Happy Birthday to mummy dearest...She would have turned 54 if.....
Posted by Caramel at 1:20 PM
Friday, May 9, 2008
I wish.....
I wish I could....
1) Go to sleep while mummy pats me..
2) Get Rayn Eshan to pack up his toys after play
3) Go into Dorothy Perkins and grab anything and everything that I want
4) Go into Toys R Us and grab anything and everything that Rayn wants
5) Get Jal everything that she wants for her birthday
6) Spend one whole day shopping and shopping and shopping
7) Sleep for 24 hours
8) Dance for 24 hours
9) Turn mean people into pigs
10 Make all the above wishes come true
I need a Fairy Godmother!
Posted by Caramel at 1:46 PM
In Loving memory of Mrs Shankar
I have so many thoughts in my mind...
But just cun seem to form them into sentences and pen them down..
This is what I wana say...
She was a truly wonderful human being.
Am thankful to have been given the opportunity to be 'touched' by her...
We will miss your loving words and tender touch Mrs Shankar.
May you rest in peace...
Posted by Caramel at 1:25 PM